That people change and they keep on changing, and that "best friends" doesn't always mean forever. People get older and sometimes never grow up, and sometimes they change for the worse. All some of us can do is watch because our words will never get through to people like them nor do our words really mean anything to them anymore. It's just blank stares and words that go in one ear and out the other because those words don't matter and the conversation is always just one way. Interests are lost and new ones are created and molded into a fake being. Too bad that everyone can see through you. How far lost does someone need to become to want to find themselves. I wonder if that person even ever wants to be found. He will never help her go anywhere but backwards. Maybe they will be imperfect for each other. Maybe one day she will realize that real people have interests, likes, dislikes, feelings, compasion, opinions, and that they actually care about people. But she cares, she cares oh too much. She cares so much that she will say anything to get someone to truley believe that she has all of those things. The perfect life right? That's what she aims for, but it takes work and drive and a will to actually get towards that stairway of perfection. I really hope one day that she finds her way, because I cannot be her drive anymore. I cannot be that support that she longs for. And I cannot be the one who lets everything slide by unnoticed because I'm worn out and "best friends" don't do the things that she has done to me.

I've noticed that even sometimes people don't change and that they probably never will. It's just a show to put on to act like being a father is the best thing ever and in reality it should be, but sometimes and usually it seems fake. Or maybe that person really does think he's all high and mighty and for what ever reason, better than me. Too bad you'll never be on my level, because being a parent is a full-time job, not a day or two out of the month. Not just because, not a baby sitting job, not to impress someone, not to be a complete fake. He's MY son. 100% No matter what science says or has said, he's 100% my DNA. I'm so sick of you saying that he is "YOUR" son. Just yours huh? Yeah right, I've been taking care of him since he was born. Since before he was born. You may "have planted the seed", as so you say, but I diddd carry him around for 7 months. I did make sure he was healthy, I did care for him while he was in the hospital for those weeks at a time. I did take care of him for his entire life so far and I will continue to do so for the rest of mine. When you grow a pair and actually start to make an effort to taking care of your son, then you can go and maybe I'll let you have an opinion on my son's life. Eat shit.

I've noticed that some people will stick by you besides family and I've realized those true friends are rare, and that there aren't many of them in the world anymore. I noticed that true friends won't lie about a thing, that they have their own beliefs and opinions and likes in dislikes and respect your views and won't bash on your own. They don't lie or steal or disrespect any part of you or your property. They make your life less stressful and are there when you need someone to vent to, not the other way around. They help you climb the ladder to the top, not bring you down with their drama. They are there for you through thick or thin and no matter what, they will always, always stick with you. I realzied who those rare people are in my life and I know what kind of people I want to be there through thick and thin with, and what kind of people I would honestly enjoy having around in my future.

I realized that I'm going to get rid of the negative and keep the positive.

I've noticed that there is a difference between having love for someone, loving someone, being in love, and true love. =))

... to be continueddd.

Where have all the good people gone.
Are they in hiding? Have I missed some of them
while crossing paths? What happened to random
smiles on the streets and friendly gestures? What
happened to lending out a hand to an unfamiliar face?
What happened to just being a friend.
What happened to trust.
It's all because everyone is out for themselves;
who can get to the top of the mountain the fastest,
with no regards of who gets taken down in the avalanche.
I'll give you all the answers.
Just about everyone is hiding. Just about everyone puts
on that plastic grin that draws you in to seek more, only
to show their true colors eventually, and it's only going
to be a disastrous masterpiece.
Disaster, it's a mess and lost trust.
Masterpiece, you move on; you learn a lesson.
Hopefully.
You probably have crossed paths. It's just now a rarity
that one of those people are now in your life at this exact moment.
Just look close and hard. You'll be lucky to have more than a few.
It's only every once in awhile does some unknown person give you
a smile while walking around in public, just to be friendly mind you.
Is everyone so damn unhappy everywhere or is it just here?
Pessimism needs to die down.
Reality and optimism need to rise again.
Maybe people will start lending out a helping hand.
Maybe people will begin to feel love and compassion that they
somehow lost in their darkened hearts.
Maybe people will actually start to show their selves instead of
hiding behind that mask that they are oh-so accustomed to.


I wish that people would find their happiness and look at the brighter side of things. How does someone honestly go through life spending their energy on being miserable. The world is full of beauty and life and the things is you don't even have to look for it. Chances are that it's right in front of you.